Next Sunday after church, Reverend Ambrose came over to GrantÂs house to talk with him about Jefferson. The Reverend tried to enlist GrantÂs help in saving JeffersonÂs soul. Grant replied that reading and writing was his work, saving souls was the preacherÂs work. The Rev. countered that Grant had a responsibility to help save JeffersonÂs soul, because Jefferson listens to Grant and no one else. Frustrated, Reverend Ambrose asked Grant if he ever thought about anyone but himself. He may have gone to college, but he was not educated. He didnÂt know the first thing about himself, and he didnÂt know his people. Using those criteria, Reverend Ambrose was the educated man.
The Reverend wants Grant to help Jefferson fall on his knees before
he goes to the chair, but Grant wants Jefferson to stand tall, not realizing
a man can kneel and stand at the same time. Grant agrees to tell Jefferson
to believe, but if Jefferson asks Grant if he believes, he wonÂt lie and
pretend that he does, not even for Miss EmmaÂs sake. Rev. Ambrose reminds
him that heÂs not the only person whoÂs ever had to lie. Their job is
to relieve pain and suffering, to cast out ignorance, and if they have
to lie to do it - then they lie. The Reverend pointed out that it was
Aunt Tante LouÂs lies that got Grant through university. SheÂd tell him
she was fine when in fact her hands were bleeding from the can knife,
or she had blisters on her knees from praying for Grant. Grant didnÂt
know any of this because she didnÂt want him to know. ThatÂs what made
him the Âgump and Rev. Ambrose the scholar. The Rev. knew his people
and knew their suffering.
This chapter, following as it does GrantÂs confrontation with Vivian, is a step on GrantÂs path towards self-realization. Like Vivian, Reverend Ambrose wonders aloud if Grant ever thinks of anyone but himself. Despite this, Grant displays a degree of self-control during the conversation, which did not possess down at the Rainbow Room. When Rev. Ambrose grabs his shoulders, he manages to refrain from knocking the ReverendÂs hands down.
Throughout the novel, Grant is slightly contemptuous of Rev. Ambrose
and his spiritual outlook, but in their discussion the preacher proves
himself to be an astute observer of the human condition. He possesses
more of the answers to lifeÂs questions than GrantÂs old schoolteacher,
Mathew Antoine. He speaks to Grant about self-awareness, the power of
sacrifice, and the strength of humility. Most importantly, he tries to
convince Grant that education should be a tool used to help others. It
should bring Grant closer to the people in the quarter instead of isolating
him from them. This is one of the reasons Grant is not yet truly educated.
When Grant next returned to JeffersonÂs cell he could see that the lead on the pencil was worn down considerably, and the eraser had been used a lot. Grant flipped through the notebook and read that Jefferson had been dreaming about the long walk to the execution chamber. Grant offered to bring him a pencil sharpener next time, but Jefferson was more interested in whether Easter was the day Jesus died, or when he rose from the tomb. Grant encouraged him to follow Rev. AmbroseÂs advice and pray for his NannanÂs sake. Jefferson asked if he prayed, and Grant had to admit that he didnÂt. But he told Jefferson it was good to believe in heaven, if only because it would please Miss Emma. She had done so many things for Jefferson, and this would be a chance to give something back.
Jefferson expressed admiration for Jesus, who went to the cross without
saying Âa mumblin word. (Page 223) He said thatÂs how he wanted to go
to the chair - without a word. He realized that from here on out he had
to do it all himself, carry his own cross like Jesus. No one cared for
him during his life; now that he was going to die he was supposed to somehow
be better than anyone else. Why was that? Grant said he didnÂt know. Jefferson
promised to do his best and Grant reminded him that every last person
in the quarter needed him to do his best. Finally, Jefferson asked what
it would be like, if it would be painful. Grant replied that he probably
wouldnÂt feel anything.
When Grant remarks, ÂMy eyes were closed before this moment, Jefferson.
My eyes have been closed all my life he is in the final stage of his
conversion process. Impressed with JeffersonÂs courage, Grant sees him
as a Savior-figure. If he manages to bear his cross with dignity, Jefferson
can provide a form of salvation to all the people of the quarter. He can
give them something theyÂve never had, something they could not achieve
on their own - pride in their race and in themselves.
JeffersonÂs diary. He has never written a letter in his life before,
but takes time to write down his observations and feelings in the fee
weeks before his execution. He writes that the Lord must only work for
white folks, since he didnÂt do anything to deserve his fate. When he
goes to sleep, he dreams about walking towards a door. He wants to tell
Grant that he likes him, but he doesnÂt know how. He notices peopleÂs
reactions to him. Henri Pichot visited his cell and sharpened his pencil,
then gave Jefferson the knife he used to sharpen the pencil. Bok, a mentally
retarded boy, gave Jefferson on of his special marbles. Paul seems distant
now that the execution date has been announced. The children from the
quarter came to visit him, and when he received a hug from his cousin
Estel he couldnÂt hold back the tears. After meeting Vivian, he felt bad
about what he had said the day he was trying to insult Grant. Towards
the end, the Sheriff allowed him to shower by himself, with a new bar
of soap and a new towel. He also left the light on at night so that Jefferson
could keep writing. He didnÂt sleep at all the night before his execution.
At the end, he wrote that he would ask Paul to take the diary to Grant.
The most important idea to emerge from JeffersonÂs diary is his surprise
that people who showed no concern for him during his life are trying to
make him comfortable right before his death. Mr. Pichot gives him the
pearl-handled pocketknife, the Sheriff allows him to have the light on,
and Grant comes to visit him once a week. None of these people ever cared
for him before he was sentenced to death. Paul seems to be the opposite.
He becomes more and more distant as the date approaches.
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