Although he was supposed to go straight home and report the details of his visit with Jefferson, Grant went to the Rainbow Club instead. He felt the truth would be too hard on Miss Emma, so he tried thinking of some little lies that might make her feel better. As he sat there drinking his beer, he watched two old black men talk about Jackie Robinson. The men were not interested in baseball, or the Dodgers, only Jackie Robinson. The scene reminded Grant of the way people used to talk about the boxer Joe Louis. When Joe Louis had lost to the German fighter Schmelling the black community had gone into mourning; but when he had later beaten Schmelling in a re-match they had celebrated like it was the fourth of July. It all reminded Grant of JoyceÂs short story, ÂIvy Day in the Committee roomÂ.
In order to purge his minds of depressing thoughts about Jefferson,
Grant tried thinking spending the weekend with Vivian. But his mind wandered
back to an article heÂd read about a black man executed in Florida. He
had dreamed of a black man being strapped into the chair and pleading
ÂHelp me, Joe Louis, please help me. He wondered if Jefferson would call
on Jackie Robinson when his day came. He left the bar and walked over
to the school where Vivian had finished teaching for the day. Grant cleaned
the blackboards and tried to convince Vivian to go away with him for the
weekend. She declined, saying she couldnÂt take the risk that her husband
would take the kids while she was gone. He told her what had happened
during his visit with Jefferson, saying he just wished he could run away
from the whole thing. Vivian reminds him that he loves his friends and
family more than he hates the injustice.
GrantÂs memories of Joe Louis, and the menÂs conversation about Jackie Robinson, conjure up an image of black athletes as Saint-like figures in the black community. Despite RobinsonÂs success as a ballplayer, he couldnÂt even eat in the same restaurant with his teammates in some cities. Neither did his fame translate into greater civil rights for the average black man in the South. The condemned black man in GrantÂs dreams cries to Joe Louis in the same way a Catholic in dire straits might call out to St. Joseph or St. Michael. These famous figures provide some measure of emotional or spiritual comfort, but they had no power to enact social change or bring about justice.
Grant again expresses his desire to run away from his problems, but
Vivian gives us another possible reason for his failure to leave. He loves
the people in the black community more than he hates the humiliation of
being black in the South.
The next day was Sunday, and Grant stayed at home while Aunt Tante Lou left for church. When he returned from college he told her he didnÂt believe in religion, and his Aunt had given up trying to force him to attend. Grant sat at his desk listening to songs echoing out of the church and trying to grade papers, but his mind drifted back to last nightÂs events. It was late when he returned from Bayonne, but his Aunt, Miss Emma, and Reverend Ambrose were sitting in the front room waiting for him. He reported his visit, telling small lies about JeffersonÂs response to the food and clothing. Reverend Ambrose asked what Grant thought Jefferson felt deep inside of him, if he was pondering the more spiritual issues of life. But Grant replied he didnÂt know anything about the soul, which was more a matter for the Reverend to pursue with Jefferson anyway. Grant felt the Reverend looked down on him because he was no longer a believer. The three of them announced they would visit Jefferson together and take him a Bible.
As he listened to the singing coming from the church, Grant remembered
when he had been there singing right along with the choir. During college,
he spent all his time studying and had not had time for church. He didnÂt
enjoy upsetting his Aunt and thought about leaving as Antoine had suggested,
but he felt he couldnÂt. He pushed away the papers and listened to the
singing. On Determination Sunday it could go for hours, there was nothing
he could do but sit there and endure it or else leave and go for a walk.
Outside he heard a car door shut and when he looked up he saw Vivian walking
toward the door.
Religion begins to play a larger role in the story. Grant is constantly stating that he knows nothing about the soul, or about how a man is supposed to live; yet he is determined not to investigate the one field that claims to have the answers. Instead, he seeks answers from an embittered former teacher who has nothing substantial to offer on this subject.
The Âtermination songs serve as a metaphor for his life. He has only
two options, sit and listen to the song until church is out or leave the
house to seek refuge elsewhere. Neither of these options seem suitable
to him. In the same manner, he is unable to accept his life in his hometown,
and unable to leave and go out to California to make a new life.
Vivian entered the house and announced sheÂd left the children with a babysitter.
They sat and ate breakfast in the kitchen and then washed the dishes.
Grant suggested they go for a walk, so they wandered out of the quarter
and crossed the railroad tracks out into a sugarcane field. Grant cut
a stalk and they ate sugarcane together. Later they sat under a big pecan
tree eating pecans. They moved deep into the sugarcane field and made
love on a blanket in between the rows. Afterward, they talked about the
children they would have together and whether or not they wanted those
children to grow up here.
Clapsaddle, Diane. "TheBestNotes on A Long Way Gone".
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